Monday, June 6, 2011

6.06.11

The Bruins need to get it done tonight. What sucks is that they've played pretty well on the road- they could easily have been coming back to Boston with a split or even a 2-0 lead themselves. Just some tough breaks, some late mistakes, but things that can be corrected as opposed to simply being overmatched. Hopefully they'll get back into it tonight.

I've lost a lot of weight. I've been a lot of things in life- average shape, decent shape, bulked up, beer bellied, fat, very fat, and for the last 10 years or so relatively fit and lean. This is the first time in my life I've ever been scrawny. Admittedly I haven't been eating all that well lately (due first to simply feeling ill, now mostly due to ileostomy system issues- don't ask) as well as the fact that I haven't been able to lift in well over a month and I've lost a considerable amount of muscle mass, particularly upper body mass. Tough too is that, due to the ileostomy, I've had to change the way that I eat; slowly, smaller bites, chew very well- in short, eating civilized- whereas before you could put anything down in front of me and I'd wolf it down in 3 minutes. Eating slowly, etc... fills me up sooner, hence I simply don't eat as much as I did before. This morning I weighed 143 lbs, which is the lightest I've been since 8th grade; if anyone wants to kick sand in my face, now is the time (there are a lot of people I probably deserve that from!)  Hopefully I won't lose much more and can begin to put some weight back on. The odd thing is that, truthfully, except for feeling a bit fatigued (due to poor sleep and the aforementioned weight loss) otherwise I feel good, feel fine.

I came across this in Peter King's SI column today:
"I always felt like you really do a better job with less time than more time because when you have less time you focus immediately on what's of the utmost importance. Whereas when you have a lot of time to deliberate as to what to do, a lot of times you kind of get off on little tangents.''- Bill Parcells
For obvious reasons that quote says a few things to me currently. I've always had the mindset that I can put off X for the moment because there will always be time to do X; if nothing else this whole thing has made clear to me that, in fact, there isn't always time. Trite perhaps, but true.

Go B's!