6.25.12

I haven't posted in a little while because, frankly, things have been pretty status-quo, which is a pretty good thing. I'm still feeling well, still able to do all of the things I did before the cancer and all came about. While it's always in the back of my thoughts, day-to-day the cancer really hasn't had a major impact upon me, upon how I conduct my days, thus far (apart from my bi-weekly treatment sessions, but even those are simply 3-4 hours out of my day, not strenuous or difficult... just boring!) Occasionally I do think of where I was a year or so ago (and about a year ago today I was recovering from my 2nd round of surgeries, and puking in front of Jim Ford, which is odd only in that it wasn't alcohol-related!) and am pleased with where I am currently.

In a perverse way perhaps but this whole experience (coupled with dealing with my mom's and my sister-in-law's cancers) has actually made me a more- what?- positive person. It has become far more easy for me to see, and to appreciate, the good in life, in living, in things small and large, and most importantly in people. There are so many good people out there, and there are so many positive, wondrous, enjoyable things in this world. It doesn't mean that I don't recognize the negatives and, if/as I can, that I do what I can to improve or change those things. But since I recovered from immediate surgeries and such last year and was able to begin leading a- fairly!- normal life again for whatever reason/s it has become much easier for me to see and to appreciate the many good people and things in life, and to have a far more positive mindset and view than perhaps I did prior to all of this occurring.

Not a bad thing.

"Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference."
Winston Churchill