I have to step up my work outs. I've slacked off the last month or so, really not pushing myself as hard as I can, as hard as I should. Yeah, I can make excuses- I had a heel injury last month which took a few weeks to really recover, and my docs tell me that the cumulative effects of extended chemotherapy over time could diminish my stamina somewhat- but those are really just that, excuses, and they are unacceptable. Ultimately it is on me, it is my responsibility, and I can't allow myself to get complacent- on anything.
I need to step it up.
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Monday, September 17, 2012
9.17.12
A talented songstress...
Catching up... Well, my oncologist started me on a different treatment regimen the beginning of September (Cetuximab.) Apparently the FOLFIRI treatment I had been on since this past July was not having much effect, so hopefully this one will have more efficacy; we should know later this month/early October. Again, knock on wood, side effects have been virtually non-existent- the only drawback with this treatment is, while it is a shorter infusion time at the clinic, it is once weekly, as opposed to my previous bi-weekly visits, so it is a bit more of a time suck. But whaddya gonna do... beats the alternative! I'm still (again, knock on wood!) feeling perfectly well, no effects from either the cancer or the treatment. Perfectly well... which is more than I can say for the Patriots yesterday, dammit. First home opener loss since Gillette opened; they just looked somewhat unfocused offensively, the O-line play in particular needs to improve- getting healthier will help. The receivers need to pick it up a bit as well, Gronk, Welker, and Lloyd all had drops that were catchable, and the loss of Hernandez doesn't help. The defense did a reasonable job (Chandler Jones is quickly becoming a beast) and for Gostkowski to miss a kick that would have won it, that doesn't happen often. Chalk it up to a bad day...
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
9.04.12
" I have a life. And it only goes in one direction. Forward."
- Don Draper
There's a lot to be said for moving in that one direction, forward. Living in the past, looking back on past setbacks and successes, serves little purpose. Allowing one's past to dictate one's present and future results, at best, in stagnation. It is difficult to move forward to better things if one is trapped in the past, in habits, in ways of thinking and acting that are no longer relevant, that no longer fit or work as one moves forward. Resting on one's past successes and glories is no more useful than ruminating over one's setbacks, missteps, mistakes, screw-ups, missed or squandered opportunities, etc... I know that I've been guilty of both, and it took me a long time to realize that, beyond learning experiences, living in the past prevents progress. There is much to be said for discarding old ways that no longer serve useful purpose, that no longer fit.
And yet...
"In this great future you can't forget your past..."
- Bob Marley
And that is where the Don Draper school of thought comes up short. While we certainly can and should strive toward that great future leaving behind those people, those relationships that have served and continue to serve us well (and vice versa) is a mistake. While I suppose there can be reasons for it I've never quite understood how some people can so easily cast off past friendships, relationships, etc... The Don Draper quote above is from where he basically tells his half-brother to buzz off simply because Don didn't want to be burdened by someone from his past, by someone who never caused him any harm. In his pursuit to move only forward, to cut all ties from his past, Don not only tremendously hurt someone else but ultimately hurt himself as well (as a result of his half-brother's suicide) and continues to be haunted by that choice and it's results. Perhaps I've just been fortunate enough to be blessed with good people in my life, people I wouldn't want nor need to cast aside that I can't quite grasp how others can do that.
I suppose the point I'm trying to get at with this- admittedly rambling- post is that, while loyalty to past habits, ways of thinking, etc... that no longer serve a purpose is worth little, loyalty to relationships, to people we had and have a positive connection, a positive history, with, is something to be cherished and valued. And maintained.
Balance I suppose...
- Don Draper
There's a lot to be said for moving in that one direction, forward. Living in the past, looking back on past setbacks and successes, serves little purpose. Allowing one's past to dictate one's present and future results, at best, in stagnation. It is difficult to move forward to better things if one is trapped in the past, in habits, in ways of thinking and acting that are no longer relevant, that no longer fit or work as one moves forward. Resting on one's past successes and glories is no more useful than ruminating over one's setbacks, missteps, mistakes, screw-ups, missed or squandered opportunities, etc... I know that I've been guilty of both, and it took me a long time to realize that, beyond learning experiences, living in the past prevents progress. There is much to be said for discarding old ways that no longer serve useful purpose, that no longer fit.
And yet...
"In this great future you can't forget your past..."
- Bob Marley
And that is where the Don Draper school of thought comes up short. While we certainly can and should strive toward that great future leaving behind those people, those relationships that have served and continue to serve us well (and vice versa) is a mistake. While I suppose there can be reasons for it I've never quite understood how some people can so easily cast off past friendships, relationships, etc... The Don Draper quote above is from where he basically tells his half-brother to buzz off simply because Don didn't want to be burdened by someone from his past, by someone who never caused him any harm. In his pursuit to move only forward, to cut all ties from his past, Don not only tremendously hurt someone else but ultimately hurt himself as well (as a result of his half-brother's suicide) and continues to be haunted by that choice and it's results. Perhaps I've just been fortunate enough to be blessed with good people in my life, people I wouldn't want nor need to cast aside that I can't quite grasp how others can do that.
I suppose the point I'm trying to get at with this- admittedly rambling- post is that, while loyalty to past habits, ways of thinking, etc... that no longer serve a purpose is worth little, loyalty to relationships, to people we had and have a positive connection, a positive history, with, is something to be cherished and valued. And maintained.
Balance I suppose...
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