I finally was able to run this morning- first time in about 2 1/2 months. I had a few doctors' appointments yesterday and one of the- good- things they all were able to say was that I could resume running (and likely start lifting more in another week or two.) I did resume doing some cardio earlier this week as well as some light/dumbbell lifting; while I expected to be weaker on the weights I was shocked how much cardio conditioning I had lost in such a relatively short time. As for the run this morning... much shorter than I had been doing, and s--l--o--w; I felt like I was running in slow motion, or quicksand, or something. Rubbery legs, too. I suppose I can say that I did have two fairly significant surgeries over the past two months (including one three weeks ago) and, oh yeah, I have cancer, too, but I have to step it up. Hopefully as I'm able to keep at it I'll regain some stamina and strength fairly quickly. Still, it felt good to be out there this morning!
As for the doc appointments... re. my surgery they removed the staples I had in and said everything looks good. Re. the cancer- they have me scheduled to start chemo 8/3. I'm not really looking forward to it. I do understand the logic behind their seeking to treat me but (as even they acknowledged) in the short/mid term the chemo is likely going to make me feel worse than I do currently (on balance I feel pretty good right now.) There are a whole host of possible/potential side effects I may/likely will experience (my sis-in-law gave me several pertinent questions/issues to ask about- thanks Margaret) from the treatment, all of which can vary in length, severity, etc... (curiously, for my regimen right now one of them should not be much/any hair loss- one positive, as I still have a decent head of hair!) The goals are to shrink, stop, or slow the growth of existing tumors and hopefully prevent spread/further growths from occurring for as long as the regimen is effective so that I won't experience (for as long as possible) the worst effects of the cancer itself, as well as to try and prolong my leading a reasonably healthy existence, again, for as long as possible. All things I certainly would like to see. But I have to admit that right now, given how I currently feel, there is an aspect of the cure is worse than the disease thinking in my mind even as, again, I do understand the logic and all re. treatment.
But whaddya gonna do...
